That One Thing

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It’s been crickets on my blog: here’s why.

I recently finished reading Elizabeth Gilbert’s book Big Magic Creative Living Beyond Fear. These days, she is making her way around social media with her talks, which are extended versions of the chapters of her lovely book.

The other day, I listened to her talk “Flight of the Hummingbird: The Curiosity Driven Life” where she talks about living a passion-driven life vs. a curiosity-driven life.

All my life, I have been trying to live a passion-driven life. When I was younger, I was more successful at it. Probably because that was before I had kids and had to make a living at a job.

As time went by, I found that I had many interests. I would do one thing for a while and then move on to the next. But I kept comparing myself to the few people I knew that had that one thing they did fully. That one thing they threw themselves into. Even if they sucked at it or didn’t make any money at it–they had a passion.

I didn’t have that one thing that did it for me anymore.

And it always made me feel unfocused and a bit attention-deficit-disordered. It made me feel unsuccessful to be “good” at doing a bunch of things instead of being incredibly super-talented and focused on that one thing that made millions of dollars.

The reason it’s been quiet here is because I gave myself permission to do anything I have been curious about. And this was even before I listened to Elizabeth Gilbert’s talk.

I took up weaving. I remember that I totally loved weaving in high school. So I bought a rigid heddle loom and have been practicing that using my handspun yarns. I’ve also been practicing spinning yarns in different ways. I’m playing taking pictures with my old iPhone and adapting those photos using various apps. I still enjoy cooking very much.

I’m thinking about sewing again.

I didn’t feel like writing about it–so I didn’t.

I let myself do those things (or not do those things) without an outcome or a dollar sign attached to it.

But always in the back of my head, I felt that it was odd or wrong to flit from one thing to the next. That somehow I had to arrive at one thing.

What if I gave myself permission to take the time for the next 40 years to do things that spark interest in me and simply see what happens?

I wonder what would happen if I would just let go of the outcome? I wonder if it would be even better than what I think it should be.

Comments

  1. says

    Hi Sue, your weaving looks beautiful. Thanks for sharing it.
    I live with a man with two passions. And only a little curiosity about anything else. It works for him but I wonder where his joy would come from if his health were to deteriorate to the degree that those two passions were unable to be pursued. He says he’ll deal with that when and if it happens. And it will, but fair enough …
    I much prefer being curious and exploring that which takes my fancy, until my interest has been satiated. Give me options any day.
    I used to wonder if I would be curious until I found a passion. That’s an option I like too!
    May you continue to enjoy your creativity – however it shows up.

    • Sue says

      Hi, Kate!

      Thanks for the comment.
      Maybe it’s okay to be either way. Full of passion for one or two things or curious about lots of things. Instead of thinking one way is the right way and the other is not.
      I checked out your Web site. So cool! I am in the process of creating a deliberate life too.

      Sue

  2. Lyn says

    I think the greatest thing we can do for ourselves is to never compare ourselves to others. We each have a temperament and direction so some will require laser focus on one direction while others of us work better flitting from project to project. Creatives often need the stimulation of many things at once as we are always drawing ideas and inspiration from many sources and directions. Hi inward and trust your best self to know what works for you!! Loving your woven piece!!

    • Sue says

      Hi, Lyn.

      Thank you for stopping by and thanks for the comment. Yes, it’s best not to compare. But not always the easiest, especially if it was ingrained in us growing up (like me!).

      You’re right, we are all different and there is no “right” way.

      Sue

  3. Val says

    Hi Sue,
    Sounds like you are going to explore Non Attachment :
    I have flited from one thing to another over the years myself.
    Not looking for monetary gain, but seeking calmness and personal peace in the midst of turmoil. It does not always have to be about the $. A connection with the Creative Source can be enough, and even more meaningful.

    • Sue says

      Hi Val!

      Thanks for the comment. Connecting with the Creative Source is far more valuable, I agree.

      Take care,

      Sue